my vision board isn't manifesting physically...so perhaps an electronic commencement is the key. 2013 is nearly over, as is my 34rd year of life. i'm feeling a pressure to clearly state direction and intention again, but i am finding it increasingly difficult to follow through. my mind feels a mess, a muck...as though i cannot keep any thought stable long enough to really dig deeply into it. i have so many ideas running through it at all times; i wish i could somehow set hours for public thoughts wherein the muck and chaos can reign, but also closed hours where i can be alone with my most pressing and personal thoughts, the ones that i need to truly ponder and assess in order to move forward with core integrity and intention. i have a feeling that working with chemical inputs might have some use; assessing my coffee and wine consumption; considering medications i take...certainly my mind cannot be incapable of rest and focus.

but back to the vision board.

ahead, in my sights, for the year ahead...

-technology upgrade (new computer - photos, music, graphic editing, word processing, internet usage, business software; canon rebel camera - new or used, i don't care, but this time i am also actually going to learn how to use it and to work with lighting
-classes/education: (food) photography, simple carpentry, floral design, healing arts
-a sexual and loving relationship/partnership with a man that 'fills my cup' and balances and expands
-step up yoga practice (more public classes)
-outdoor adventure (bike camping, backpacking, hiking)
-a calm and serene home life (less energy spent on cleaning others' messes and/or navigating shared space)
-financial healing, financial healing, financial healing
-travel. canada will do. it would be great to travel for work.
-grace hearth: hire/bring on 1-3 more people. expand beyond me and jocelyn. healthy and functioning systems, rent appropriate space, less pain and more effectiveness/empowerment in the work
-nurture and express the artist within me: writing and photographs
-sing. sing with a partner. sing in public. open the channel.
-embolden. no need to apologize or regret or be fearful. truly accept that i have a right to be here and to be myself and that i will be loved for being that person, even if there are difficult and ugly bits. take time in communication to access core and speak from the heart with earned wisdom. the world needs my true voice.

com.mu.ni.ty: an interacting population of various kinds of individuals (as species) in a common location

dream.: a visionary creation of the imagination

net.: anything that catches or entraps; trap; snare

com.mu.ni.ty.dream.net:a virtual space for gathering the imaginative creations and nascent aspirations borne by an interacting populace.